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Wish You Weren't Here

Wish You Weren't Here

by Erin Baldwin 2024 304 pages
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Name Too Complicated

A name, an identity, a friendship's origin

Juliette Barrera-Wright's earliest memory of feeling small is when a teacher suggests her name is too difficult, nearly erasing her identity. Priya Pendley, a new classmate, stands up for her, cementing a bond that will define and complicate their lives. This moment sets the tone for their relationship: Priya, the defender, and Juliette, the outsider. Even as their personalities clash and their lives diverge, this act of kindness becomes the glue that keeps them orbiting each other, unable to fully connect or break apart. Juliette's sense of self is shaped by this early experience of being "too much," and Priya's need to be liked and to please others is established as her defining trait. Their dynamic is set: mutual respect, rivalry, and a strange, inescapable connection.

Priyatopia's Glittering Shadow

Priya's world, Juliette's discomfort, social divides

Priya's annual birthday extravaganza, "Priyatopia," is a spectacle of privilege and performance, highlighting the gulf between her and Juliette. The party is a microcosm of their social world: Priya is adored, magnetic, and always at the center, while Juliette feels peripheral, both literally and emotionally. The event is saturated with wealth, curated image, and the pressure to perform happiness. Juliette's discomfort is palpable as she navigates the party, feeling both drawn to and repelled by Priya's world. Their interactions are laced with inside jokes, competitive banter, and the unspoken tension of being both friends and rivals. The party ends with Juliette feeling more isolated, longing for the authenticity she finds at summer camp.

Camp: A Place Apart

Camp as Microcosm as sanctuary, Juliette's true self emerges

Fogridge Sleepaway Camp is Juliette's haven, the one place she feels seen and valued for who she is. Here, she is the "North Star," a leader and role model, free from the social hierarchies and expectations of home. Camp as Microcosm is a world apart, governed by its own rituals, friendships, and traditions. Juliette's anticipation for her final summer is tinged with nostalgia and anxiety about impending adulthood. The camp's structure, with its quirky staff and beloved traditions, offers her a sense of belonging and purpose. But this sanctuary is threatened when Priya unexpectedly arrives as her roommate, bringing the complications of their school-year dynamic into Juliette's sacred space.

Unlikely Roommates

Collision of worlds, forced cooperation, simmering tension

Juliette's horror at discovering Priya is her camp roommate is matched only by Priya's nonchalance. Their forced proximity in the coveted Polaris cabin turns their uneasy truce into a daily negotiation. Juliette, fiercely protective of her camp identity, resents Priya's effortless charm and adaptability. Priya, meanwhile, is determined to make the best of the situation, masking her own insecurities with humor and competence. Their interactions oscillate between passive-aggressive jabs and moments of genuine connection. The camp's ethos of "Kindness And Respect for Everyone" challenges Juliette to confront her own biases and grudges, while Priya's presence forces her to reevaluate what it means to belong.

The North Star's Burden

Leadership, expectations, and the weight of being "too much."

As North Star, Juliette is expected to embody the best of camp: leadership, enthusiasm, and inclusivity. But the role is both an honor and a burden, amplifying her anxieties about being "too intense" or "too much." Her relationships with friends like Lucy and Gia provide comfort, but also highlight her fear of being replaced or overshadowed—especially by Priya, who quickly becomes popular at camp. Juliette's struggle to balance her desire for authenticity with the pressure to be likable is mirrored in her interactions with counselors and peers. The camp's traditions, from s'mores to Color War, become arenas for both self-discovery and rivalry.

Survival Skills and Rivalries

Competition, competence, and unexpected admiration

Wilderness Adventure, a camp program, becomes a battleground for Juliette and Priya's rivalry. Priya's surprising survival skills—honed through years of watching Survivor and preparing for her dream audition—challenge Juliette's self-image as the camp expert. Their competition is fierce but laced with reluctant admiration. Priya's competence, creativity, and resilience force Juliette to confront her own insecurities and assumptions. The rivalry is not just about camp activities, but about identity, worth, and the fear of being ordinary. As they navigate fire-making, shelter-building, and foraging, their dynamic shifts from antagonism to a grudging respect that hints at something deeper.

The Chameleon and the Queen

Invisibility, exclusion, and the pain of being left out

A pivotal moment occurs when Juliette is accidentally excluded from a secret camp party, while Priya is invited. The incident triggers Juliette's deepest fears of invisibility and replaceability. Her sense of self, so tied to camp, is shaken as she realizes her friends may prefer Priya's company. The metaphor of the chameleon—visible only in certain environments—captures Juliette's struggle to be seen and valued. The pain of exclusion is compounded by her own pride and reluctance to ask for help. Priya, for her part, is oblivious to the slight, highlighting the disconnect between their experiences. The episode deepens their emotional entanglement, as both grapple with loneliness and longing.

Fire, Friendship, and Exclusion

Injury, vulnerability, and shifting alliances

A late-night accident at a camp party leaves Juliette with a sprained ankle, forcing her to confront her vulnerability and dependence on others. The injury sidelines her from beloved activities and intensifies her feelings of isolation. Priya, Lucy, and Gia rally around her, but the dynamics of care and resentment are complicated. Juliette resents needing help, especially from Priya, but also craves connection. The enforced downtime leads to unexpected moments of intimacy and honesty between the two girls, as they share secrets, fears, and dreams. The boundaries between rivalry and friendship blur, setting the stage for deeper revelations.

The Sprained Ankle Pact

Theater, creativity, and the courage to be seen

Unable to participate in physical activities, Juliette is assigned to Theater, where Priya is designing sets and costumes. Initially resistant, Juliette is drawn into the creative process, rediscovering her love of singing and performance. Priya encourages her to audition for the lead in Beauty and the Beast, challenging her to embrace her talent and take risks. Their collaboration in the theater becomes a metaphor for their evolving relationship: messy, vulnerable, and transformative. As they work together, old wounds are reopened and new possibilities emerge. The experience forces Juliette to confront her fear of failure and her longing to be truly seen.

Theater, Talent, and Truths

Performance, authenticity, and the power of vulnerability

The camp's production of Beauty and the Beast becomes the crucible for Juliette and Priya's relationship. Juliette's journey from reluctant participant to star performer mirrors her internal struggle to accept her own worth. Priya's dedication to set design and costume-making reveals her own need for control and perfection. Their late-night rehearsals and shared creative triumphs foster a growing intimacy, punctuated by moments of jealousy, misunderstanding, and longing. The play's themes of transformation and acceptance resonate deeply, as both girls grapple with their identities and the possibility of something more than friendship.

Color War Chaos

Competition, teamwork, and the breaking point

Color War, the camp's most intense tradition, brings out the best and worst in everyone. Juliette and Priya find themselves on different teams, their rivalry reignited by the high stakes and fierce competition. The games test their loyalty, resilience, and ability to work together. Amidst the chaos, moments of connection and care emerge, as they support each other through setbacks and celebrate each other's victories. The climax of Color War forces Juliette to confront her fear of being overshadowed and Priya to acknowledge her own exhaustion and need for support. The event becomes a turning point, breaking down old barriers and opening the door to honesty.

Senior Twilight Choices

Sacrifice, honesty, and the cost of caring

The camp's final rite of passage, Senior Twilight, is both a literal and symbolic journey into the unknown. Juliette, still recovering from her injury, must choose between participating and supporting Priya, who is overwhelmed by her responsibilities. Their mutual sacrifices—Juliette giving up her spot, Priya missing the play to help her—bring their simmering tensions to a head. A stormy night in the woods becomes the crucible for their relationship, as they confront their fears, resentments, and desires. In the rain-soaked tent, vulnerability gives way to confession, and rivalry transforms into something tender and real.

Rain, Rescue, and Realization

Confession, connection, and the leap into love

Trapped together by circumstance and emotion, Juliette and Priya finally admit their feelings for each other. Their first kiss, tentative and electric, is the culmination of a summer's worth of longing, misunderstanding, and growth. The rain outside mirrors the emotional release inside, as both girls let go of old defenses and embrace the possibility of love. The experience is both exhilarating and terrifying, forcing them to reckon with their own insecurities and the risk of being truly known. The night marks a new beginning, as they emerge from the tent changed, ready to face the world together.

Lucky Enough to Lose

Letting go, gratitude, and the beauty of endings

As camp draws to a close, Juliette is forced to confront the reality of endings: the last campfire, the final group photo, the burning of the effigy. The rituals of farewell are bittersweet, suffused with gratitude for what has been and grief for what will never be again. Juliette's journey is one of acceptance—of her own intensity, her love for Priya, and the inevitability of change. The final night is a celebration of community, memory, and the courage to say goodbye. In Priya's arms, Juliette finds the strength to let go and the hope to begin anew.

The Last Goodbye

Transformation, legacy, and the promise of return

The epilogue, set three years later, finds Juliette and Priya returning to Fogridge as Color War captains, their relationship now solid and joyful. The camp that once felt like a world apart is now the foundation of their shared life. The rituals and traditions that shaped them as teenagers have become the legacy they pass on to new generations. The story ends with a sense of continuity and hope: the magic of camp endures, and the love that began in rivalry has become a source of strength and belonging. Juliette, once the outsider, is now at the center of her own story, lucky to have loved and been loved in return.

Characters

Juliette Barrera-Wright

Intense outsider, searching for belonging

Juliette is a fiercely intelligent, passionate, and sometimes prickly protagonist whose sense of self is shaped by early experiences of exclusion and being "too much." Her identity is a battleground between pride and vulnerability, independence and longing for connection. At camp, she is the North Star, a leader and role model, but this role is both a refuge and a burden. Her rivalry with Priya is rooted in admiration, jealousy, and a deep, unspoken desire for acceptance. Juliette's journey is one of self-acceptance: learning to embrace her intensity, trust her own worth, and open herself to love. Her relationships with friends and family are complex, marked by competition, loyalty, and the ache of not quite fitting in. Through her evolving bond with Priya, Juliette learns that being seen—truly seen—is both terrifying and transformative.

Priya Pendley

Magnetic people-pleaser, hiding vulnerability

Priya is the dazzling center of every room, effortlessly charming, talented, and adored. Beneath her polished exterior, however, lies a deep-seated anxiety about being liked, a compulsion to please, and a fear of being alone. Her life is a performance, curated for social media and real life alike, but the pressure to be perfect is exhausting. At camp, Priya is both out of her element and desperate to prove herself. Her rivalry with Juliette is a mirror for her own insecurities: she envies Juliette's authenticity and independence, even as she resents her intensity. Priya's journey is one of letting go—of perfection, of control, and of the need to be everything to everyone. In Juliette, she finds someone who sees past the façade, offering her the acceptance she craves but cannot ask for. Their love is a leap of faith, a risk that finally allows Priya to be real.

Lucy Swentek

Rebellious confidante, fiercely loyal friend

Lucy is Juliette's best friend at camp, known for her independence, wit, and refusal to bow to authority. She is the knife to Juliette's paper: sharp, unapologetic, and unafraid to challenge the status quo. Lucy's loyalty is unwavering, but her own struggles with vulnerability and trust mirror Juliette's. She provides comic relief, tough love, and a grounding presence, helping Juliette navigate the complexities of friendship, rivalry, and self-doubt. Lucy's own journey is one of learning to let others in, even as she maintains her fierce autonomy.

Gia Pham

Charming peacemaker, master of stillness

Gia is the charismatic, stylish, and emotionally intelligent member of Juliette's friend group. His ability to move between silliness and seriousness makes him a stabilizing force, offering support and perspective when tensions run high. Gia's confidence and self-assurance are hard-won, and he is attuned to the dynamics of exclusion and belonging. He is both a cheerleader and a truth-teller, helping Juliette see herself more clearly and encouraging her to take risks. Gia's own arc is quieter but essential, embodying the value of friendship and the importance of being present.

Flagstaff

Beloved counselor, camp legend, embodiment of joy

Flagstaff is the heart of Fogridge, a counselor whose enthusiasm, creativity, and kindness make him a hero to campers and staff alike. He represents the best of camp: inclusivity, fun, and the courage to be "a lot." Flagstaff's mentorship is crucial for Juliette, offering her validation and encouragement when she doubts herself. His presence is a reminder that there is a place for everyone, no matter how intense or unconventional. Flagstaff's legacy is one of joy, acceptance, and the power of community.

Galahad

Strict counselor, foil to Juliette, catalyst for change

Galahad is the new senior counselor, whose rigid adherence to rules and lack of empathy make her a source of conflict for Juliette. Her inability to see beyond the surface exacerbates Juliette's insecurities and forces her to fight for what she believes in. Galahad's eventual firing is a turning point, highlighting the importance of advocacy, self-worth, and the need for adults to be accountable. She serves as both antagonist and catalyst, pushing Juliette to claim her own power.

TK Zimmerman

Camp "older sister," wise mentor, emotional anchor

TK is the daughter of the camp's owners and a lifelong fixture at Fogridge. She is a source of wisdom, comfort, and perspective for Juliette and other campers. TK's ability to listen without judgment and offer gentle guidance makes her a crucial support system. She embodies the camp's values of kindness, respect, and growth, helping Juliette navigate the challenges of adolescence and self-discovery.

Deepika Pendley

Priya's mother, universal nurturer, model of acceptance

Deepika is Priya's mother and a beloved figure in the community, known for her warmth, generosity, and unconditional support. She represents the ideal of parental love, offering acceptance and encouragement to all. Deepika's influence on Priya is profound, shaping her values and her struggles with perfectionism. Her relationship with Juliette is a source of comfort and longing, highlighting the complexities of family and belonging.

Pat Zimmerman

Camp director, paternal figure, keeper of tradition

Pat is the owner and director of Fogridge, a steady, wise, and sometimes eccentric presence. He embodies the camp's history and values, balancing tradition with adaptability. Pat's guidance is both practical and philosophical, offering stories and lessons that help campers make sense of their experiences. His role as a surrogate parent is especially important for Juliette, providing stability and affirmation.

Maris

Magnetic performer, symbol of presence over perfection

Maris is a fellow camper and cast member in the camp's play, known for his stage presence and charisma. He represents the idea that talent is not just about skill, but about confidence, connection, and the willingness to take risks. Maris's interactions with Juliette challenge her to embrace her own gifts and to value authenticity over perfection.

Plot Devices

Duality and Rivalry

Two girls, two worlds, one orbit

The central device is the duality between Juliette and Priya: outsider and insider, intensity and charm, authenticity and performance. Their rivalry is both external (competition for attention, leadership, and belonging) and internal (struggles with self-worth, fear of rejection, and the desire to be seen). The narrative structure mirrors this duality, alternating between moments of conflict and connection, culminating in their eventual union. The rivalry is a crucible for growth, forcing both girls to confront their flaws and embrace vulnerability.

Camp as Microcosm

A world apart, rules and rituals, transformation

Fogridge functions as a microcosm of adolescence, with its own hierarchies, traditions, and opportunities for reinvention. The camp's rituals—Color War, Senior Twilight, the burning of the effigy—serve as milestones in the characters' journeys, marking transitions, testing loyalties, and providing space for self-discovery. The camp's structure allows for both escape and confrontation, offering a safe space to explore identity, friendship, and love.

Foreshadowing and Symbolism

Names, gifts, and the passing of time

The story is rich with foreshadowing and symbolism: the recurring gift card exchanged between Juliette and Priya, the significance of names and naming, the metaphor of the chameleon, and the burning of the effigy. These elements underscore the themes of transformation, memory, and the bittersweet nature of endings. The use of camp traditions as narrative anchors provides both continuity and a sense of inevitability, as each summer must end, and each goodbye is both an ending and a beginning.

Narrative Voice and Humor

Wit, self-awareness, and emotional honesty

The novel's voice is sharp, witty, and deeply self-aware, blending humor with vulnerability. Juliette's narration is both a shield and a window, allowing readers to see her fears and hopes even as she tries to deflect with sarcasm. The humor is a coping mechanism, but also a source of connection, drawing readers into the emotional heart of the story. The narrative's meta-awareness—references to Survivor, theater, and pop culture—grounds the story in the realities of

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3.97 out of 5
Average of 2k+ ratings from Goodreads and Amazon.

Wish You Weren't Here is a delightful YA summer camp romance featuring Juliette and Priya as frenemies-turned-lovers. Readers praise the book's heartwarming story, diverse representation, and authentic camp atmosphere. While some found the romance underdeveloped, many appreciated the character growth and relatable themes of self-discovery. The novel's humor, strong writing, and nostalgic summer vibes resonated with readers, making it a perfect feel-good read. Overall, it's a highly recommended debut that captures the essence of youth and summer romance.

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About the Author

Erin Baldwin is a debut author with a passion for adventure and unique experiences. She has traveled extensively, visiting 21 countries and living in 6 different states. Baldwin's quirky personality shines through in her pursuit to become "the most interesting being on the planet," which includes attempting to learn the fiddle. Her writing is represented by Lauren Spieller at Folio Literary Management. "Wish You Weren't Here" marks Baldwin's entry into the literary world, showcasing her ability to craft engaging YA romance stories. Her diverse experiences and playful approach to life likely influence her writing style and storytelling abilities.

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